I love my career. I love my career. No seriously...I love my career! Lol I've wanted to become a scientist for some time now. And now that I feel myself getting closer to that goal, I feel like everything else in my life has not went well. I have yet to find that one person to begin a beautiful life with. It's frustrating. With all my ambition, goals, and perfectionism I'm still "alone". It's not that there are not men in my life...there are! But they don't seem to be worth my time and effort.
I'm a human. And I'm not perfect in the least bit. But I demand respect, loyalty, and honesty above anything. The men of this generation seem to have lost the memo on this. I never ask for a lot, but what I ask for is IMPORTANT. It never takes a lot to show appreciation and love. And yet I rarely receive this. Which tells me one thing...I need to move on and find the one that was meant for me. It's a difficult thing for me. Mainly because I barely have enough time to eat and sleep while in school and now I have to find time to find a deserving suitor.
My mother is a perfect example of the independent model gone wrong. And I've watched her make enough mistakes (while making my own in recent years) to know that I in no way want to be independent my whole life. Yes, I am very capable of taking care of myself and I love doing it...but to find someone who is selfless enough to do the same and you do the same for them is the problem. Out of all the men I've run across, I get this selfish attitude...a gimme first. I don't mind giving in the least bit but I will not be taken of advantage of...NO. If I give, I should receive...maybe even more being that I am a supportive woman and willing to be there. So now, I come to this crossroad in my life on the eve of my 25th birthday. While I am faced with a tough decision, I'd rather make the tough decision now to push myself on into my destiny. I want to be in a happy fulfilling relationship...not in a ship wreck to hell lol. So instead of waiting until the end of the adventure to bail, I think I'll get off while I'm still close to the shore! lol
DrCBri
