You know, the holidays haven't been fun for me past the age of 11. My family is so divided at times. And usually I'm caught in the middle without trying to be involved at all. It's hard when you have to ask your uncle whether you can come over to his house with your mom on Christmas and he says he has to think about it...not because of you but because he doesn't feel like dealing with your mother. Eventually I figured that everyone would realize how short life is and get over themselves. Just for the sake of the holidays. But NO. It hurts me when I have to deal with so much during a time when I should be happy. Don't get me wrong, I'm thankful for what I have...but I realize that some things could be better. My close friend started her own family and in some ways I don't blame her. She doesn't have to deal with the BS from other relatives. I want the same thing. I want to be able to start a family and have a tradition...something that's for me and my significant other and no one else. Yes, I'm down but once again, it makes me put all of my energy into work. I don't focus on the holidays until it comes up and smacks me in the back of my head with an emphatic "I'm HERE."
Before I end this sad blog, I will end with a poetic thought and also say that there will be scientific blogs coming soon...DON'T WORRY.
After bleeding dry, I can only hope that the pain will end. After crying knives, I can only hope that my face is not scared and will heal. After bleaching my mind into oblivion, I can only hope that my imagination still exists. I walk numbly, just as you have always done. I move slow not fast, trying to become. Become...become what was always in my destiny. My future full of jade and darkness. Darkness that I want to lose...but I continue to find in and out of time. Time and time and time again.
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Science is Life
Today, my mind is clear. My emotions are at a low (which is good). I'm not happy but I'm almost numb to love. After going through what could be considered as a break-up, I'm still emotionally attached but I see the larger picture. I was slowly but surely letting that part of my life slip into my work. And that is UNACCEPTABLE. I was mad at myself for allowing the two to merge. But now I'm back on track. I feel like I have a new focus on my purpose. Last week, my boss told me I made an unacceptable error in my experiment. I did. And I must say that I was frustrated...my weekend consisted of me in the bed, upset at myself for ever committing that error. I'm someone that prides themselves on doing the right thing at work. So, I took a deep breath, stepped back from the situation, and re-focused my energy to fix the problem.
Science is Life. For my fellow scientists out there, I'm sure you can relate. If something is going wrong in the lab, life is going wrong (and vice versa). Life is similar to experiments; nothing ever really goes as planned. (Even though you may have been planning for weeks.) So you have to adjust certain steps in a protocol...or change you your thinking altogether. So while I'm changing things in the lab, I'm doing the same in my life. Yes, I'm pretty much single but if I had to choose which I wanted more...I would go with my career (in a heart beat) over love. Why do you ask? Well of course I want to fall in love and have a partner. But I want to be successful much more...I've invested so much time and energy into this and NO I can't just put it down for a second. I know the type of person that I am...and I know the type of woman I am...and it takes an incredible man to deal with me. LOYALTY is huge; TRUST is huge. But above all, he has to be willing to understand that my career is me...science is me. Sometimes, I regret the way I handled situations because they could have turned out better. But once I sit down and think about it, I realize that that is life. And that is science. You may or may not expect for the result to occur, but when it does its glorious. You hold on to that moment, and you share it with the world (or that special person) =).
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
One or the Other...
I know I'm blessed. I've started a journey on a career that will always reward me for my accomplishments. I've graduated from a top college with honors in my field.
But for all of my great achievements in my career, my love life is non-existent at times.
I had someone...someone who I thought my actually be the guy for me...and it seems like the entire time we were together, I was scratching my head wondering why I was with him. Don't get me wrong, he's a great guy. But he's not the guy for me. That's what's so upsetting about the situation. We clicked on a lot of levels but we didn't click on what mattered to me the most in a relationship. I want to feel secure that you're the only guy in my life that I could ever love and I NEVER felt that way with him. I know there are women out there who can relate to this. You feel like you're being a bitch but in reality you're being as REAL as possible. Most women (in some aspects) have no clue what they want. Let me go on the record as saying I am 75% sure of what I want in a guy; the other 25% is questioning whether these characteristics are valid. SO ladies, before I go any further I must say this...EVEN IF HE IS THE PERFECT GUY, IF HE'S NOT FOR YOU DON'T WASTE YOUR TIME. Yea I said it. =P I thought this guy was the one that I could grow to love but it's hard to grow to love someone...especially when you find everything about that person out of place. By that I mean, he had a great personality...pretty sensible. But when it counted, I felt like I was alone...like if I really needed him to be there for me he would check out. Ok, yes he was and is dependable. By be there for me I mean erase any doubts or fear that I would have about the relationship. I think Mya said it best in her song Lock U Down..."Somebody who can read me, check me when I need to be, pick me up when I'm falling. That's what I need". Not to mention he was immature to a certain extent. Yes he did things for me but when it came down to be a strong man for me I think he failed. He didn't do the simple things...it was always me initiating conversation. I HATE THAT! Yes I like to initiate conversation sometimes but all the time? NO! And I'm sure that most women hate that as well. I had to call or ask him to call me...WTF. I'm not even a phone person and he couldn't even do that! He was sweet but when you're in a relationship you need more. You want the complete package...and no I'm not perfect either...I'm flawed. But if I feel like I'm opening up to you constantly and you don't show me the same I slowly but surely shut down. So, at the end of the day, I shut down. I gave up...because in the end I went with my gut. It wasn't worth it. It wasn't worth me pondering everyday whether I wanted to be with him. It wasn't worth me being unhappy or feeling confined.
As I move on, I will take what I learned from this relationship and apply it to the next one; to ensure that it is successful. I will also try to put the same high powered energy that I put in my career in my relationship. I pray that God has someone for me as I am for them. =)
But for all of my great achievements in my career, my love life is non-existent at times.
I had someone...someone who I thought my actually be the guy for me...and it seems like the entire time we were together, I was scratching my head wondering why I was with him. Don't get me wrong, he's a great guy. But he's not the guy for me. That's what's so upsetting about the situation. We clicked on a lot of levels but we didn't click on what mattered to me the most in a relationship. I want to feel secure that you're the only guy in my life that I could ever love and I NEVER felt that way with him. I know there are women out there who can relate to this. You feel like you're being a bitch but in reality you're being as REAL as possible. Most women (in some aspects) have no clue what they want. Let me go on the record as saying I am 75% sure of what I want in a guy; the other 25% is questioning whether these characteristics are valid. SO ladies, before I go any further I must say this...EVEN IF HE IS THE PERFECT GUY, IF HE'S NOT FOR YOU DON'T WASTE YOUR TIME. Yea I said it. =P I thought this guy was the one that I could grow to love but it's hard to grow to love someone...especially when you find everything about that person out of place. By that I mean, he had a great personality...pretty sensible. But when it counted, I felt like I was alone...like if I really needed him to be there for me he would check out. Ok, yes he was and is dependable. By be there for me I mean erase any doubts or fear that I would have about the relationship. I think Mya said it best in her song Lock U Down..."Somebody who can read me, check me when I need to be, pick me up when I'm falling. That's what I need". Not to mention he was immature to a certain extent. Yes he did things for me but when it came down to be a strong man for me I think he failed. He didn't do the simple things...it was always me initiating conversation. I HATE THAT! Yes I like to initiate conversation sometimes but all the time? NO! And I'm sure that most women hate that as well. I had to call or ask him to call me...WTF. I'm not even a phone person and he couldn't even do that! He was sweet but when you're in a relationship you need more. You want the complete package...and no I'm not perfect either...I'm flawed. But if I feel like I'm opening up to you constantly and you don't show me the same I slowly but surely shut down. So, at the end of the day, I shut down. I gave up...because in the end I went with my gut. It wasn't worth it. It wasn't worth me pondering everyday whether I wanted to be with him. It wasn't worth me being unhappy or feeling confined.
As I move on, I will take what I learned from this relationship and apply it to the next one; to ensure that it is successful. I will also try to put the same high powered energy that I put in my career in my relationship. I pray that God has someone for me as I am for them. =)
Monday, November 23, 2009
*SIGH*
So, most of you already know what occurred within the last 48-72 of hours. For those who don't, I will take the time to update you.
Recently, I had a rendezvous with someone that I thought was the right guy for me. I honestly felt we could be in a long-term relationship. He CLAIMED he wanted me to be his girl etc. Over the weekend, we had fun until it came down to .... Now, those of you who know me know this is an important aspect, but not necessarily. We were happy... so I thought. When everything was said and done we ended whatever we had and now we don't talk at all. Everybody knows about my past I'm sure...but I'm trying to figure out why this hurts so much. Its an annoying and aggravating feeling. Something that I never felt before for an individual of the opposite sex. We talked so much...and we were truly friends. After all was said and done, we no longer have contact. Yes I like him, but no we could not be together. He was in no way shape or form ready for a mature relationship. We could have remained friends but HE chose to terminate that...so I'm left standing at a crossroads. Did I honestly cause this on myself? YES I probably did. I mean I saw the signs...I knew that I should have ended it months ago. And yet I let it continue. All for the satisfaction of having someone that I felt would grow into a good man. I'm disheartened but I'm more so angry. I want to toilet paper his house lol. I want to put a hit out on him. Yes, I was in the wrong but he never gave me a chance to explain how I felt. So while I'm having a fucked up Thanksgiving trying to figure out my next step, I have the memory of what could have been. I know that some of you have experienced this, (much more than me) but it hurts that much more and makes me more jaded.
Again, I caused it on myself...but I want him to feel what I'm feeling. So, I want yo guys to weigh in on this...BE HONEST...
p.s. I'm having a horrible day as well lol. My uncle's car would not start this morning FML
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
CHANGE
What should I do?
Go left or right?
I want to believe what's in front of me is true. But past experiences have proven otherwise. Although I'm sure what I want, I'm not sure if it's...change.
*sigh*
Yes, change is everything. It is the foundation of humans. We evolve...for better or for worst. I just want to be certain that change is for me. And if it is, then I will be ready...for change to take over my life.
=)
Go left or right?
I want to believe what's in front of me is true. But past experiences have proven otherwise. Although I'm sure what I want, I'm not sure if it's...change.
*sigh*
Yes, change is everything. It is the foundation of humans. We evolve...for better or for worst. I just want to be certain that change is for me. And if it is, then I will be ready...for change to take over my life.
=)
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Nobel Prize in Chemistry 2009
And the winner is........*horn sounds* lol......A. Yonath and T. Steiz for studying the ribosome.
Ribosome are small organelle proteins in the cell that translate the amino acid genetic code into protein or polypeptide chain. Ribosomes are made of protein and RNA.
The central dogma: DNA is transcribed to RNA which is translated into protein.
Why is knowing about the ribosome important?
Well, once again this is a way to determine how cells are functioning, what proteins are being produced, etc. More importantly, the triplet codes (or codons) which are translated into protein determine certain genetic characteristics and diseases. If reading frames are thrown off by genetic mutations, an amino acid may be produced in a peptide and it could ultimately be the difference between an individual with Sickle Cell Anemia or someone without the disease. Overall, a great deal of our knowledge about protein expression and diseases caused by mutations lies with our knowledge about something as "bantam" as the ribosome.
I mean if you think about it, this prize is as big as Watson and Crick discovering the nature of DNA. It is the basis of every organism (let alone humans)...
Simply put, cell are everywhere =D
Ribosome are small organelle proteins in the cell that translate the amino acid genetic code into protein or polypeptide chain. Ribosomes are made of protein and RNA.
The central dogma: DNA is transcribed to RNA which is translated into protein.
Why is knowing about the ribosome important?
Well, once again this is a way to determine how cells are functioning, what proteins are being produced, etc. More importantly, the triplet codes (or codons) which are translated into protein determine certain genetic characteristics and diseases. If reading frames are thrown off by genetic mutations, an amino acid may be produced in a peptide and it could ultimately be the difference between an individual with Sickle Cell Anemia or someone without the disease. Overall, a great deal of our knowledge about protein expression and diseases caused by mutations lies with our knowledge about something as "bantam" as the ribosome.
I mean if you think about it, this prize is as big as Watson and Crick discovering the nature of DNA. It is the basis of every organism (let alone humans)...
Simply put, cell are everywhere =D
Friday, October 2, 2009
2008 Nobel Prize in Chemistry
The Nobel Prize in Chemistry and Medicine will be awarded in a couple of days. So, I thought that I should at least post on what the prize was awarded in for Chemistry. The winners in 2008 were O. Shimomura, M. Chalfie, and R. Tsien for discovering and developing the green fluorescent protein. GFP has a green or blue fluorescent light when excited at certain wavelengths in certain organisms. Why is this big you ask?
In molecular and cell bio, the protein is used as a reporter for the expression of certain genes. For example, it allows for the detection of cells if the gene is expressed...or even organelles within a cell. Fluorescence microscopy is being used heavily in science; reporters are needed to determined location and if the molecular entity is present. In humans it may be used to determine if an organ or tissue is working properly by seeing what proteins its producing.
Yesterday, the Nobel Prize for Phisiology and Medicine was announced. E. Blackburn, C. Greider, and J. Szostak discovered telomeres and telomerase. Telomeres are at the end of chromosomes and help to protect them from destruction; telomerase is the enzyme that synthesizes telomeres. Telomeres have been in cancer research for years. Over time they become smaller and actually are able to stop the development of cancer through cell senescence (prohibiting further cell division). Malignant cells actually bypass senescence and continue to divide with the activation of telomerase (lengthening the telomeres).
Tomorrow will be the announcement of the Nobel Prize in Chemistry...I'll make sure to keep you guys updated =)
In molecular and cell bio, the protein is used as a reporter for the expression of certain genes. For example, it allows for the detection of cells if the gene is expressed...or even organelles within a cell. Fluorescence microscopy is being used heavily in science; reporters are needed to determined location and if the molecular entity is present. In humans it may be used to determine if an organ or tissue is working properly by seeing what proteins its producing.
Yesterday, the Nobel Prize for Phisiology and Medicine was announced. E. Blackburn, C. Greider, and J. Szostak discovered telomeres and telomerase. Telomeres are at the end of chromosomes and help to protect them from destruction; telomerase is the enzyme that synthesizes telomeres. Telomeres have been in cancer research for years. Over time they become smaller and actually are able to stop the development of cancer through cell senescence (prohibiting further cell division). Malignant cells actually bypass senescence and continue to divide with the activation of telomerase (lengthening the telomeres).
Tomorrow will be the announcement of the Nobel Prize in Chemistry...I'll make sure to keep you guys updated =)
Thursday, October 1, 2009
Failure is not an option...OK
Fail - to fall short in success or achievement of something expected, attempted, desired, or approved.
Have you ever been so sure of yourself in your dream that no one else could ever take it from you?
My dream: to become a successful researcher and scientist (don't want to reveal all of my goals =)...)
If you're not, this blog is for you. I realized at a young age what I wanted to do and where I wanted to be. I also realized that others will try to put you down by denying you of their approval. But, in the end, their opinions and approvals do not matter. It's between you and God. So tell me this, how much do you want it?
You have to want it more than the next person. Even though I consider myself an intelligent person, I realize that I'm not a genius. The thing that sets me apart from extremely gifted and smart individuals is the fact that I'm passionate about my goals...and I want to achieve them by any means necessary. I battle with other people's opinions daily...until I realize that at the end of my life I want to be happy with my accomplishments. The only way that I can be happy is to dismiss any type of negativity or doubtful inflections about my future and do what I want and what I think is best for my future.
I want to literally help the world...and help the human race. And while I know my dream will take time, I know that I am willing to put in the time to get back the satisfying reward of a job well done.
Yesterday, i had a fellow employee ask why I did not have a job in my field. I didn't get offended (in actuality I indeed do have a job in my field, he just doesn't know it yet =)...). I simply responded by saying in DUE TIME. Not to bash the guy but I believe my future is a bit brighter than his. He'll be working at the job I'm at now while I'm off in a lab trying to save lives and being published...so the jokes on him in the end =)
The purpose of this blog was to tell you to never stop believing in yourself and your dream...the only one stopping you is you...so what are you waiting for? What is a man without a dream? A lost soul with no meaning in life.
Have you ever been so sure of yourself in your dream that no one else could ever take it from you?
My dream: to become a successful researcher and scientist (don't want to reveal all of my goals =)...)
If you're not, this blog is for you. I realized at a young age what I wanted to do and where I wanted to be. I also realized that others will try to put you down by denying you of their approval. But, in the end, their opinions and approvals do not matter. It's between you and God. So tell me this, how much do you want it?
You have to want it more than the next person. Even though I consider myself an intelligent person, I realize that I'm not a genius. The thing that sets me apart from extremely gifted and smart individuals is the fact that I'm passionate about my goals...and I want to achieve them by any means necessary. I battle with other people's opinions daily...until I realize that at the end of my life I want to be happy with my accomplishments. The only way that I can be happy is to dismiss any type of negativity or doubtful inflections about my future and do what I want and what I think is best for my future.
I want to literally help the world...and help the human race. And while I know my dream will take time, I know that I am willing to put in the time to get back the satisfying reward of a job well done.
Yesterday, i had a fellow employee ask why I did not have a job in my field. I didn't get offended (in actuality I indeed do have a job in my field, he just doesn't know it yet =)...). I simply responded by saying in DUE TIME. Not to bash the guy but I believe my future is a bit brighter than his. He'll be working at the job I'm at now while I'm off in a lab trying to save lives and being published...so the jokes on him in the end =)
The purpose of this blog was to tell you to never stop believing in yourself and your dream...the only one stopping you is you...so what are you waiting for? What is a man without a dream? A lost soul with no meaning in life.
Monday, September 28, 2009
Off to my new job...I think...=?
So, I start my new job in November. I'm extremely excited! I'm ready to do lab work and progress in my career.
Now I run into another problem. Of course I did not think that finding a place to live would be easy. Especially considering that I don't know the area from the back of my hand. So, after talking to some family members they advised me to find a roommate to decrease on expenses...OK...
Allow me to explain why this is a good and bad idea. I'm a bit of a loner at times. I don't like the idea of coming home to someone that I know...in this instance it would be even worst because the person is a stranger. Yes I can save money but my sanity and well-being is much more valuable. One family member advised me to get a roommate because it seemed better to have someone to come home to...are you serious...I'm an adult...I don't need anyone to come home to...except a place that I can call my own...
This same family member is someone advising me to consider a profession that I've thought about for 2 seconds...my mind is focused on something that I'm much more passionate about...something that grabs my interests...
With this being said, I still went on hunting for a roommate. I found someone who needs someone to cut expenses...great right. Then I talked with an old friend who told me about where she's staying...she said that it is a really good place.
So, I called and it seemed that things were too good to be true. They were...I would pretty much have to pay rent and electricity (no deposits, administration, or application fee). But, they only have 3 spots left...they give me the roommate lists and I call each person. One number is a wrong number, the other person did not answer their phone and has not called me back, and the last person said that she had already found someone. Excuse my language but WTF. I'm not in college anymore. I have a job...I'm not looking for someone to be BFFs with...I'm looking for a place to stay...I'm not that obliged to getting a roommate that I get along with...as long as she stays out of my way I'll stay out of hers...
So I talk to someone at the apartment complex and she's like maybe you should consider a 3 BR...WTF...NO. I asked for a 2 BR and if I can't get that from you guys I'll go somewhere else. She just wants a sale...I'm not stupid...and I've already been through undergrad and had my college experience...I refuse to go through it again and be in a 3 BR.
So the original person I was considering in the beginning is looking better and better. I feel like I'm compromising by even living with someone knowing that in my heart I don't want to...and I also feel like my family can shove it with their terrible advice and opinions of what I should do with my life...
As if I don't have enough to deal with, one family member offered to let me borrow their car IF I needed it...of course I'll need it...I'm in an unfamiliar area and my job is not a simple 8-4 or 9-5. There are going to be times that I stay late and I would rather not wait and take a cab when I can just hop in a car and go home. Not to mention the fact that I am in my 20's and I would like to have the ability to travel to a closer more prominent city when I feel like leaving my home.
So, on top of the fact that I don't know where I'm going to stay there is a strong chance that I will be taking the bus. I don't mind taking the bus I just like to have freedom. I'm not some high school girl going to college. I'm a college graduate who has a great job and who wants the opportunity to be independent...and comfortable in her own thoughts. I am a woman...someone who knows she needs help...and people who are willing to help her without bashing her for taking the road less taken in life.
Ledisi --> Alright
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZO7D1am7fPQ&NR=1
Now I run into another problem. Of course I did not think that finding a place to live would be easy. Especially considering that I don't know the area from the back of my hand. So, after talking to some family members they advised me to find a roommate to decrease on expenses...OK...
Allow me to explain why this is a good and bad idea. I'm a bit of a loner at times. I don't like the idea of coming home to someone that I know...in this instance it would be even worst because the person is a stranger. Yes I can save money but my sanity and well-being is much more valuable. One family member advised me to get a roommate because it seemed better to have someone to come home to...are you serious...I'm an adult...I don't need anyone to come home to...except a place that I can call my own...
This same family member is someone advising me to consider a profession that I've thought about for 2 seconds...my mind is focused on something that I'm much more passionate about...something that grabs my interests...
With this being said, I still went on hunting for a roommate. I found someone who needs someone to cut expenses...great right. Then I talked with an old friend who told me about where she's staying...she said that it is a really good place.
So, I called and it seemed that things were too good to be true. They were...I would pretty much have to pay rent and electricity (no deposits, administration, or application fee). But, they only have 3 spots left...they give me the roommate lists and I call each person. One number is a wrong number, the other person did not answer their phone and has not called me back, and the last person said that she had already found someone. Excuse my language but WTF. I'm not in college anymore. I have a job...I'm not looking for someone to be BFFs with...I'm looking for a place to stay...I'm not that obliged to getting a roommate that I get along with...as long as she stays out of my way I'll stay out of hers...
So I talk to someone at the apartment complex and she's like maybe you should consider a 3 BR...WTF...NO. I asked for a 2 BR and if I can't get that from you guys I'll go somewhere else. She just wants a sale...I'm not stupid...and I've already been through undergrad and had my college experience...I refuse to go through it again and be in a 3 BR.
So the original person I was considering in the beginning is looking better and better. I feel like I'm compromising by even living with someone knowing that in my heart I don't want to...and I also feel like my family can shove it with their terrible advice and opinions of what I should do with my life...
As if I don't have enough to deal with, one family member offered to let me borrow their car IF I needed it...of course I'll need it...I'm in an unfamiliar area and my job is not a simple 8-4 or 9-5. There are going to be times that I stay late and I would rather not wait and take a cab when I can just hop in a car and go home. Not to mention the fact that I am in my 20's and I would like to have the ability to travel to a closer more prominent city when I feel like leaving my home.
So, on top of the fact that I don't know where I'm going to stay there is a strong chance that I will be taking the bus. I don't mind taking the bus I just like to have freedom. I'm not some high school girl going to college. I'm a college graduate who has a great job and who wants the opportunity to be independent...and comfortable in her own thoughts. I am a woman...someone who knows she needs help...and people who are willing to help her without bashing her for taking the road less taken in life.
Ledisi --> Alright
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZO7D1am7fPQ&NR=1
Saturday, September 5, 2009
FINALLY
Finally...a sigh of relief leaves my body...
My first REAL job offer! I am so excited and yet at the same time that I get the job offer, I have the opportunity to work at a place that I've wanted to work for years...
The dilemma is that I said yes to the first job because I figured that I would not get anything else...but while the first job is a great offer, the second job is a better offer...
It may seem petty but location and comfort is big for me. I will be in this position and this place for at least 2 years before graduate school...
Both jobs are entry levels...one pays more than the other and one gives me more responsibility and the ability to get my own research project...
One researches info that I am interested in going to grad school for...Both jobs have their pros and cons...but while I said yes, I feel like I will disappoint...
So, wow right now I don't have a problem, I feel that next week I will lol...
The second job is perfect but the first is good...and I killed the second interview so I have a feeling that they will offer me the job...
So I guess I should go with my dream job in the dream location...with my dream research...
But, I don't want to be sorry... =?
My first REAL job offer! I am so excited and yet at the same time that I get the job offer, I have the opportunity to work at a place that I've wanted to work for years...
The dilemma is that I said yes to the first job because I figured that I would not get anything else...but while the first job is a great offer, the second job is a better offer...
It may seem petty but location and comfort is big for me. I will be in this position and this place for at least 2 years before graduate school...
Both jobs are entry levels...one pays more than the other and one gives me more responsibility and the ability to get my own research project...
One researches info that I am interested in going to grad school for...Both jobs have their pros and cons...but while I said yes, I feel like I will disappoint...
So, wow right now I don't have a problem, I feel that next week I will lol...
The second job is perfect but the first is good...and I killed the second interview so I have a feeling that they will offer me the job...
So I guess I should go with my dream job in the dream location...with my dream research...
But, I don't want to be sorry... =?
Friday, August 14, 2009
Ok...FML..But...
So...I'm the type of person that stays in her lane. I give advice but I know not to cross the line... There's nothing more aggravating (to me) than individuals who think they know your life or your field (profession) more than you. I get offended when someone who majored in Philosophy or Math (there are others trust me lol) try to tell me how to get a job.
I am faced with the reality that my job market is scarce and hard to get into. Mainly because it is government funded and they want individuals who not only meet the requirements of the position but exceed it...
Recently, I interviewed at a very prestigious university for a chance to manage a lab as a research specialist. To be honest, the position itself was not what I completely wanted. I don't mind being over a lab but I want the opportunity to completely focus on projects in the lab. I want to grow as a researcher...supervisory roles will come later...to make a long story short I was not hired...
The employer was impressed by my credentials (I mean after all who can say that they did an internship at the CDC in college). But I did not have enough experience in lab management...are you kidding me? No, that's not what I want to do in the future but to me lab management is nothing compared to lab research. I would rather worry about my own project and help others than be over other people. Many of the people I would be over are Post Doctoral Fellows and Graduate Students...who am I to lay down rules? I simply have my bachelors? I mean of course I would be faced with this issue but I am the type of person to persevere in any situation.
What bothers me the most is that while I took the advice of others who know science as much as the back of their hand, I am still in the same position I started in...WOW.
I try not to knock help but I'm a realist...I feel like if I can't help myself then how can you? Especially if you don't even know what I'm going after...lol.
The moral of this blog is to listen to and DECIPHER the good advice from the bad...
I think of it like this...if I wanted to get a job in the business field I could get it...but if a business major tried to get a job in my field they would not be able to...
So I return back to drawing board...with a heart full of pain and discourage from a cruel world who will never fully understand my dream =(
I am faced with the reality that my job market is scarce and hard to get into. Mainly because it is government funded and they want individuals who not only meet the requirements of the position but exceed it...
Recently, I interviewed at a very prestigious university for a chance to manage a lab as a research specialist. To be honest, the position itself was not what I completely wanted. I don't mind being over a lab but I want the opportunity to completely focus on projects in the lab. I want to grow as a researcher...supervisory roles will come later...to make a long story short I was not hired...
The employer was impressed by my credentials (I mean after all who can say that they did an internship at the CDC in college). But I did not have enough experience in lab management...are you kidding me? No, that's not what I want to do in the future but to me lab management is nothing compared to lab research. I would rather worry about my own project and help others than be over other people. Many of the people I would be over are Post Doctoral Fellows and Graduate Students...who am I to lay down rules? I simply have my bachelors? I mean of course I would be faced with this issue but I am the type of person to persevere in any situation.
What bothers me the most is that while I took the advice of others who know science as much as the back of their hand, I am still in the same position I started in...WOW.
I try not to knock help but I'm a realist...I feel like if I can't help myself then how can you? Especially if you don't even know what I'm going after...lol.
The moral of this blog is to listen to and DECIPHER the good advice from the bad...
I think of it like this...if I wanted to get a job in the business field I could get it...but if a business major tried to get a job in my field they would not be able to...
So I return back to drawing board...with a heart full of pain and discourage from a cruel world who will never fully understand my dream =(
Friday, August 7, 2009
In Vitro Meat!
Meat as you know is animal's main source of protein...
Good right? Wrong lol. Not so much in the fact of the meat itseld but how it's obtained. I mean think about it. Hundreds of thousands of animals are slaughtered everyday for the purpose of human consumption. Killing animals is wrong...but we may be able to avoid this...by producing meat in a laboratory setting...
It doesn't seem so far fetched considering that scientists have actually began to clone animals. With in vitro meat, we would be able to control fat content and even make it healthier. The article states that many livestock meat is the source of disease. To quote the artice, we'd be able to prevent a heart attack with a burger rather than lead to one.
I feel great about the idea. But I know that it won't go over so good with public. I mean individuals were upset about genetically modified organisms (GMOs) so I know this won't go over well. GMFs (genetically modified foods) have replaced many fruits and vegetables in the store...even some sausage. Once individuals found out about this they were a bit upset.
Check out the article for yourself...I think it's a great idea!
http://www.cnn.com/2009/TECH/science/08/07/eco.invitro.meat/index.html#cnnSTCText
Good right? Wrong lol. Not so much in the fact of the meat itseld but how it's obtained. I mean think about it. Hundreds of thousands of animals are slaughtered everyday for the purpose of human consumption. Killing animals is wrong...but we may be able to avoid this...by producing meat in a laboratory setting...
It doesn't seem so far fetched considering that scientists have actually began to clone animals. With in vitro meat, we would be able to control fat content and even make it healthier. The article states that many livestock meat is the source of disease. To quote the artice, we'd be able to prevent a heart attack with a burger rather than lead to one.
I feel great about the idea. But I know that it won't go over so good with public. I mean individuals were upset about genetically modified organisms (GMOs) so I know this won't go over well. GMFs (genetically modified foods) have replaced many fruits and vegetables in the store...even some sausage. Once individuals found out about this they were a bit upset.
Check out the article for yourself...I think it's a great idea!
http://www.cnn.com/2009/TECH/science/08/07/eco.invitro.meat/index.html#cnnSTCText
Saturday, August 1, 2009
The Weirdest College Mascot
Hello all!
I decided that tonight's blog should be something fun. This morning, I awoke to the television on ESPN. After coming out of my morning sleepy slumber, there was this commercial about two of the weirdest mascots...the Aardvark of and the Boll weevil of Southern Arkansas. LMBO!
Are you kidding me?
The mascot for my alma mater is the Scottish Terrier (nicknamed the Scottie)...Agnes Scott college respectively lol. That does not even compare to these two. I've also been a Warrior, a Dolphin, and a Bear...pretty normal. So after careful consideration, I convinced myself that I would search for the weirdest college mascots and dedicate this blog to them. I'm not going to talk about all, but I will post the websites so that you guys can go and check them out.
Wheatshoker-Witchita State University
What in the heck is a wheat shocker? I mean who shocks wheat...could you honestly see yourself at a home basketball game shouting go wheat shockers lol. Oh and of course you'd be dressed in your wheatiest attire...after making your wheat...I bet...NOT lol.
Banana Slugs-University of California Irvine
Another one of those huh...this is where things go absolutely too far. While Banana slugs are the secondest largest species of slugs in the world, I don't think that you'll strike much fear in your competitor's heart by saying that your a slug. I mean what is a slug gonna do against a tiger...otherly than squirm away lol.
Rainbow Warriors-University of Hawaii
This mascot is not so bad...otherly than the fact that you wouldn't just be a warrior...you'd be decked out in rainbow attire...lol.
Fighting Okra-Delta State University
Ok...I think this has got to be one of the funniest mascots I've heard of...EVER lmbo. I mean, being an unheard of animal and a farmer are not as bad as being a vegetable. You'd be eaten after the first minute in the game LMBO.
Boilermakers-University of Purdue
I've always disliked this mascot. A boilermaker produces steel fabrications...is this suppose to signify that Purdue students are harworking or that they just like bringing on the heat lol. Anyways, I understand why you might want to be a boilmaker...but I'll never get used to the name...it's awkward...lol.
Here are the websites that I found these at...trust me it doesn't get better LOL
(Jumbos, Volunteers, Seawolves, Flying feet...etc LMBO)
http://www.listology.com/list/weird-and-original-names-college-mascots
http://www.spmsportspage.com/published/spmfeatures/the-top-100-college-nickn-4.shtml
I decided that tonight's blog should be something fun. This morning, I awoke to the television on ESPN. After coming out of my morning sleepy slumber, there was this commercial about two of the weirdest mascots...the Aardvark of and the Boll weevil of Southern Arkansas. LMBO!
Are you kidding me?
The mascot for my alma mater is the Scottish Terrier (nicknamed the Scottie)...Agnes Scott college respectively lol. That does not even compare to these two. I've also been a Warrior, a Dolphin, and a Bear...pretty normal. So after careful consideration, I convinced myself that I would search for the weirdest college mascots and dedicate this blog to them. I'm not going to talk about all, but I will post the websites so that you guys can go and check them out.
Wheatshoker-Witchita State University
What in the heck is a wheat shocker? I mean who shocks wheat...could you honestly see yourself at a home basketball game shouting go wheat shockers lol. Oh and of course you'd be dressed in your wheatiest attire...after making your wheat...I bet...NOT lol.
Banana Slugs-University of California Irvine
Another one of those huh...this is where things go absolutely too far. While Banana slugs are the secondest largest species of slugs in the world, I don't think that you'll strike much fear in your competitor's heart by saying that your a slug. I mean what is a slug gonna do against a tiger...otherly than squirm away lol.
Rainbow Warriors-University of Hawaii
This mascot is not so bad...otherly than the fact that you wouldn't just be a warrior...you'd be decked out in rainbow attire...lol.
Fighting Okra-Delta State University
Ok...I think this has got to be one of the funniest mascots I've heard of...EVER lmbo. I mean, being an unheard of animal and a farmer are not as bad as being a vegetable. You'd be eaten after the first minute in the game LMBO.
Boilermakers-University of Purdue
I've always disliked this mascot. A boilermaker produces steel fabrications...is this suppose to signify that Purdue students are harworking or that they just like bringing on the heat lol. Anyways, I understand why you might want to be a boilmaker...but I'll never get used to the name...it's awkward...lol.
Here are the websites that I found these at...trust me it doesn't get better LOL
(Jumbos, Volunteers, Seawolves, Flying feet...etc LMBO)
http://www.listology.com/list/weird-and-original-names-college-mascots
http://www.spmsportspage.com/published/spmfeatures/the-top-100-college-nickn-4.shtml
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Detecting a Pandemic
As you all know, the H1N1 virus (better known as the swine flu) was declared a pandemic in the human culture this year. Pandemics occur when an infectious disease spreads throughout the world to different continents. The swine flu itself is very interesting. It is a combination of three flu types: human, avian, and swine. The outbreak that occured recently was due in part to a reassortment of genes between strains from these organisms. While most individuals recover from symptoms, scientists are in the trial phase of preparing a vaccine that combines all of the strains from the flu. A vaccine is an agent that prepares the body for an immunological response. For example, to battle the flu it would be beneficial to include parts of the infectious causing agents (parts of the virus). Once the person has been exposed to a small amount of the virus, their immune system is prepared to battle the infection the second time it is encountered; making it easier for the immune system to recognize and kill the virus.
Now that you have a background, let's get to the real issue. Before a person can be diagnosed with the H1N1 virus, the virus must be detected. There are many ways to do this. An ELISA assay (which can test bodily fluid samples for antibodies to the virus or antigens from the virus) or a PCR assay would be ideal. PCR would amplify the DNA of the virus if it is present...which would ultimately provide information of how much of the virus is in the person's system. The latest technique being used today is Real-time PCR. RT PCR (or quantitative PCR) allows for quantification and detection of the DNA. The techniques takes PCR one step further; as the product accumulates, it is quantified...making it a quicker process. Usually quantification is done through fluorescent dye.
In the study listed below, they detect the H1N1 influenza A virus in controls and specimen samples. I did not go into great detail about PCR but I am listing what is needed for PCR (& RT PCR). This is exciting...with methods like RT PCR to help detect the virus, we can begin to
Here is the paper --> http://jcm.asm.org/cgi/reprint/JCM.01087-09v1?view=long&pmid=19553589
PCR requirements: primers (forward and reverse), DNA sample, thermocycler, Taq polymerase enzyme, Magnesium, Buffer, dNTPs
RT PCR requirements: everything from PCR and fluorescent dye
Now that you have a background, let's get to the real issue. Before a person can be diagnosed with the H1N1 virus, the virus must be detected. There are many ways to do this. An ELISA assay (which can test bodily fluid samples for antibodies to the virus or antigens from the virus) or a PCR assay would be ideal. PCR would amplify the DNA of the virus if it is present...which would ultimately provide information of how much of the virus is in the person's system. The latest technique being used today is Real-time PCR. RT PCR (or quantitative PCR) allows for quantification and detection of the DNA. The techniques takes PCR one step further; as the product accumulates, it is quantified...making it a quicker process. Usually quantification is done through fluorescent dye.
In the study listed below, they detect the H1N1 influenza A virus in controls and specimen samples. I did not go into great detail about PCR but I am listing what is needed for PCR (& RT PCR). This is exciting...with methods like RT PCR to help detect the virus, we can begin to
Here is the paper --> http://jcm.asm.org/cgi/reprint/JCM.01087-09v1?view=long&pmid=19553589
PCR requirements: primers (forward and reverse), DNA sample, thermocycler, Taq polymerase enzyme, Magnesium, Buffer, dNTPs
RT PCR requirements: everything from PCR and fluorescent dye
Sunday, July 26, 2009
ITWYLD
If today was your last day...
As I sat feeling depressed about my current situation, I thought listened to one of my favorite songs by Nickleback. It has an excellent point...not everyday is promised...yet individuals go about thinking as if it is...and here is why...
The society we live into today is ruled by one thing...MONEY. It's the root of all happiness and all evil. If you have money, you're "happy" because you know that you are capable of doing just about anything you please (legally). If you don't have any money, you feel depressed and all you can think about is how to get money or improve your situation.
I find myself in a position I did not think I would see in a while...and I'm tired of blaming the economy. This country's current economic situation is because of bad money management on the part of the previous presidents...not the current president. This country is based on capitalistic views...we must get money to suceed...by any means necessary...
I quote Malcolm X loosely because that was not the purpose of the statement. We are willing to kill, steal, etc. for a small piece of paper? Why? I blame this mostly on our fore "fathers" who enstilled in us that we can't have anything or get anywhere without the little piece of green paper. I HATE THIS IDEA! Why can't we be happy and satisfied with our lives as they are? We always want MORE...we always have to be the best at something...or rule everything...
I personally feel that we have too much competition and money problems in our society...this will surely bring down our country (as it is now)...
I'm depressed because of my current economic status...I want the finer things in life...but if I died today, would that even matter...
So, I'm taking a hard look at the woman in the mirror...and I'm asking her (for once) to become the better person she was always meant to be...to rise above it and look towards the cloud with the silver lining...
She wants to help those everywhere...and she knows that she will be able to soon enough =)
Nickleback --> If Today Was Your Last Day
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k-OlqERixVE
Michael Jackson --> Man in the Mirror
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SGeZYednWtI
As I sat feeling depressed about my current situation, I thought listened to one of my favorite songs by Nickleback. It has an excellent point...not everyday is promised...yet individuals go about thinking as if it is...and here is why...
The society we live into today is ruled by one thing...MONEY. It's the root of all happiness and all evil. If you have money, you're "happy" because you know that you are capable of doing just about anything you please (legally). If you don't have any money, you feel depressed and all you can think about is how to get money or improve your situation.
I find myself in a position I did not think I would see in a while...and I'm tired of blaming the economy. This country's current economic situation is because of bad money management on the part of the previous presidents...not the current president. This country is based on capitalistic views...we must get money to suceed...by any means necessary...
I quote Malcolm X loosely because that was not the purpose of the statement. We are willing to kill, steal, etc. for a small piece of paper? Why? I blame this mostly on our fore "fathers" who enstilled in us that we can't have anything or get anywhere without the little piece of green paper. I HATE THIS IDEA! Why can't we be happy and satisfied with our lives as they are? We always want MORE...we always have to be the best at something...or rule everything...
I personally feel that we have too much competition and money problems in our society...this will surely bring down our country (as it is now)...
I'm depressed because of my current economic status...I want the finer things in life...but if I died today, would that even matter...
So, I'm taking a hard look at the woman in the mirror...and I'm asking her (for once) to become the better person she was always meant to be...to rise above it and look towards the cloud with the silver lining...
She wants to help those everywhere...and she knows that she will be able to soon enough =)
Nickleback --> If Today Was Your Last Day
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k-OlqERixVE
Michael Jackson --> Man in the Mirror
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SGeZYednWtI
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Immunotherapy (IT) =D
Today's blog is about a project I did research on while in college. Immunotherapy.
Most of us know about the more common treatments for cancer. Chemotherapy and radiation are commonly used. Immunotherapy is common but not many people have heard about it. The issues with chemotherapy and radiation are numerous. For starters, chemo subjects all of the body's cells to a toxic regimen. Yes, the neoplastic (cancer) cells receives chemo to kill the cells but the other normal cells in the body receives chemo as well. This is why many cancer patients become ill from the treatment. Radiation is similar. Patients are subjected to high rays that kill other cells. So, what is left you say? Immunotherapy.
The treatment is simply remarkable. It's similar to training the body to recognize the cancer and kill the cancer off itself! Tumors have certain biomarkers (antigens) that leave them recognizable by physicians. I consider them great targets for immunotherapy. There are 2 kinds of this therapy: monoclonal antibody IT and radioactive antibody IT. Monoclonal antibody IT involves injecting antibodies with affinity to tumor markers (or antigens) into the patient. Once the anibodies attach, they have the ability to amount an immune response in which T cells and NK cells (immune cells that fight and battle infection in the body) can come along and kill these cells by endocytosis (engulfing), etc. Radioactive IT acts in a similar way in which antibodies conjugated with radioactive isotopes attach to tumor markers (antigens) and a dose of radioactive chemicals to the tumor. Both methods target the tumor directly and avoid affecting the other cells.
In my presentation, I talked about targeting MUC 1 antigen markers. While the idea was good (MUC 1 is a common tumor antigen), MUC 1 is found on other cells as well. So, my plan headed a little south there lol. But, those markers that are specific to certain cancers (ex. ETA in breast cancer) are great targets. Many of these therapies are being used today. Drugs such as Bevacizumab (IgG monoclonal antibody used in monoclonal IT) and Tositumomab (IgG antibody conjugated with the Iodine-131 radioactive isotope) have been deemed safe by the FDA.
So, you guys might be getting an information overload after all of that lol.
But something to remember is that there is always an alternative treatment. Sure, in most cases we might not have discovered it...but with any treatment in science (and anything in life) there is progress. And progress will help many individuals who suffer everyday. =)
Most of us know about the more common treatments for cancer. Chemotherapy and radiation are commonly used. Immunotherapy is common but not many people have heard about it. The issues with chemotherapy and radiation are numerous. For starters, chemo subjects all of the body's cells to a toxic regimen. Yes, the neoplastic (cancer) cells receives chemo to kill the cells but the other normal cells in the body receives chemo as well. This is why many cancer patients become ill from the treatment. Radiation is similar. Patients are subjected to high rays that kill other cells. So, what is left you say? Immunotherapy.
The treatment is simply remarkable. It's similar to training the body to recognize the cancer and kill the cancer off itself! Tumors have certain biomarkers (antigens) that leave them recognizable by physicians. I consider them great targets for immunotherapy. There are 2 kinds of this therapy: monoclonal antibody IT and radioactive antibody IT. Monoclonal antibody IT involves injecting antibodies with affinity to tumor markers (or antigens) into the patient. Once the anibodies attach, they have the ability to amount an immune response in which T cells and NK cells (immune cells that fight and battle infection in the body) can come along and kill these cells by endocytosis (engulfing), etc. Radioactive IT acts in a similar way in which antibodies conjugated with radioactive isotopes attach to tumor markers (antigens) and a dose of radioactive chemicals to the tumor. Both methods target the tumor directly and avoid affecting the other cells.
In my presentation, I talked about targeting MUC 1 antigen markers. While the idea was good (MUC 1 is a common tumor antigen), MUC 1 is found on other cells as well. So, my plan headed a little south there lol. But, those markers that are specific to certain cancers (ex. ETA in breast cancer) are great targets. Many of these therapies are being used today. Drugs such as Bevacizumab (IgG monoclonal antibody used in monoclonal IT) and Tositumomab (IgG antibody conjugated with the Iodine-131 radioactive isotope) have been deemed safe by the FDA.
So, you guys might be getting an information overload after all of that lol.
But something to remember is that there is always an alternative treatment. Sure, in most cases we might not have discovered it...but with any treatment in science (and anything in life) there is progress. And progress will help many individuals who suffer everyday. =)
Friday, July 24, 2009
Another CF?....Frustration
Tonight's blog is weird lol...
Some people have common names but my the combination of my first and last names are not that common. So, to find someone with the exact same first name and almost the same last name is crazy! I mean there are variations of my last name but for some other girl to have the first name too...simply bizarre...
Now on to other important matters...
I must say that my life for the past 3 months has not been the best...Yes I am a college graduate...but I am a graduate who is still out of work.
I have more than enough passion and intelligence to offer any laboratory; and yet I find myself working in a position that I do not like. I want to be happy but I simply can not. How can ANYONE truely understand unless they experience the everyday struggle that I go through at home and at work...
I try to be happy for my friends...but I can't help but ask why those same good fortunes that are blessing them are not blessing me...what have I done wrong? I have faith and I believe in myself...I'm passionate...I'm an upstanding citizen...I have a degree in a field that many want to attain but find it difficult to...I'm in a field that favors me in every aspect...and I graduated from a GREAT institute...so why is this happening to me?
I believe in God...I have faith...I have dreams...why?
I know it could be worse...but for me this is worse...I'm a person who thrives off success...who lives for the ability to conduct research in a lab...to learn...to improve...to be better....
and yet I see myself down every day...
YES, I am happy for those who make it...but I cringe a little inside because I have not...I AM THE HARDEST WORKING PERSON I KNOW...
I don't knock others, but I know myself. I am the type of person that if it takes working a job at 30,000 a year in order to get experience to earn a degree that would get me 90,000 a year, I'm willing to do that...
Even at the job I'm at now I work had...
So now I find myself at a crossroads...the only thing that will ease my pain is prayer and the occasional laugh from Family Guy or Spongebob cartoons...
To quote Drake loosely...I know the success is coming, I just hope that I'm alive for it... =?
DrCBri OUT
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Stem Cell Research!
http://www.time.com/time/health/article/0,8599,1912375,00.html
The above article was published in TIME. It talks about a research group producing mice from stem cells that have not been talked about too much.
Stem cells are cells that have the ability to differentiate into specialized cells (for instance erythrocytes/red blood cells) and also have the ability to renew themselves through mitotic division. Most of the stem cell talk in the news has been about embryonic stem cells. These source for these cells is the blastocyst (or early embryo). These cells come at the risk of the embryo itself...which is why the issue is so controversial. These cells are totipotent and have the ability to become an individual.
The cells used in this experiment however are adult stem cells which were induced or reprogrammed to grow into mice. This is great because adult stem cells are multipotent; while they can give rise to other cells, they are limited to what type of cells they can give rise to. So for these cells to be able to give rise to an organism is fascinating. It must be stressed that I do not condone the "cloning" aspect of this experiment. However I do condone the significance of being able to treat many of the diseases that humans suffer (ex. Parkinson's disease). Read the article to get more info =)
The above article was published in TIME. It talks about a research group producing mice from stem cells that have not been talked about too much.
Stem cells are cells that have the ability to differentiate into specialized cells (for instance erythrocytes/red blood cells) and also have the ability to renew themselves through mitotic division. Most of the stem cell talk in the news has been about embryonic stem cells. These source for these cells is the blastocyst (or early embryo). These cells come at the risk of the embryo itself...which is why the issue is so controversial. These cells are totipotent and have the ability to become an individual.
The cells used in this experiment however are adult stem cells which were induced or reprogrammed to grow into mice. This is great because adult stem cells are multipotent; while they can give rise to other cells, they are limited to what type of cells they can give rise to. So for these cells to be able to give rise to an organism is fascinating. It must be stressed that I do not condone the "cloning" aspect of this experiment. However I do condone the significance of being able to treat many of the diseases that humans suffer (ex. Parkinson's disease). Read the article to get more info =)
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Cancer Research =)
I'm reposting this because I feel like it should stand on its own
On a brighter note, I read an interesting article on CNN about triple negative breast cancer(TNBC). I want to go into cancer research later in life. I plan on obtaining my doctorate in Cancer Bio...which would explain why I'm suggesting the article lol. TNBC is a type of breast cancer that is non responsive to hormone therapy because the tumor lacks estrogen, progesterone, and HER2 hormone receptors. The cancer is very difficult to treat...although traditional forms of treatment such as chemotherpy and radiation are used. The cancer is very aggressive and seen in young African American females. The doctor in the article travels to Africa (specifically Ghana) to see if she can find a clue or some significance (connection) with the cancer seen in women in Ghana and in the US. Even though this is a small step, this is big. Not only may there be genetic connections, but this could be a step towards finding a more effective diagnosis in the future. There are so many new techniques being used to diagnose various cancer (ex. ovarian)...I studied Mass Spec in my Biochem class and that is helping to diagnose patients in enough time to receive treatment before they succumb to the disease. Cancer is a crazy disease...it can be virtually untreatable at times and is uncurable...It's up to the new scientists coming up to stop this...and let me say that I am ready for the challenge =)
http://www.cnn.com/2009/HEALTH/07/21/bia.triple.negative.cancer/index.html
On a brighter note, I read an interesting article on CNN about triple negative breast cancer(TNBC). I want to go into cancer research later in life. I plan on obtaining my doctorate in Cancer Bio...which would explain why I'm suggesting the article lol. TNBC is a type of breast cancer that is non responsive to hormone therapy because the tumor lacks estrogen, progesterone, and HER2 hormone receptors. The cancer is very difficult to treat...although traditional forms of treatment such as chemotherpy and radiation are used. The cancer is very aggressive and seen in young African American females. The doctor in the article travels to Africa (specifically Ghana) to see if she can find a clue or some significance (connection) with the cancer seen in women in Ghana and in the US. Even though this is a small step, this is big. Not only may there be genetic connections, but this could be a step towards finding a more effective diagnosis in the future. There are so many new techniques being used to diagnose various cancer (ex. ovarian)...I studied Mass Spec in my Biochem class and that is helping to diagnose patients in enough time to receive treatment before they succumb to the disease. Cancer is a crazy disease...it can be virtually untreatable at times and is uncurable...It's up to the new scientists coming up to stop this...and let me say that I am ready for the challenge =)
http://www.cnn.com/2009/HEALTH/07/21/bia.triple.negative.cancer/index.html
Eyecare Eye wear =)
http://www.cnn.com/2009/TECH/science/07/22/contact.lens.drugs/index.html
The above article is something I came across today. Brief intro...
Most medication for eyes are dispensed through eye drops. Most individuals (including myself) have difficulties delivering eye drops to the eye. The anticipation of actually putting th drop in the eye and making sure that the drop goes into your eye rather than down your cheek is frustrating. Many times most of the medication fails to reach the eye.
In comes Science! =)
Scientists are now developing a contact lenses that includes the medication needed for certain eye conditions. Individuals with such eye diseases as glaucoma would simply be able to place the lense in their eye and medication is steadily released! Wow!
I'm slightly interested in opthamalogy/optometry so this is great!
Thank you science once again =)
The above article is something I came across today. Brief intro...
Most medication for eyes are dispensed through eye drops. Most individuals (including myself) have difficulties delivering eye drops to the eye. The anticipation of actually putting th drop in the eye and making sure that the drop goes into your eye rather than down your cheek is frustrating. Many times most of the medication fails to reach the eye.
In comes Science! =)
Scientists are now developing a contact lenses that includes the medication needed for certain eye conditions. Individuals with such eye diseases as glaucoma would simply be able to place the lense in their eye and medication is steadily released! Wow!
I'm slightly interested in opthamalogy/optometry so this is great!
Thank you science once again =)
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
*SIGH*
I wish that this blog would be better but it can't. Today has been a long stressful day. To begin with, my cousin betrayed a discrete agreement. She asked me to do something...and went behind my back and told about the agreement. I was utterly upset. Then, she asked me to help her today...I did but relunctantly. Why should I help you now that the agreement is pretty much null and void. Now that everything is done, I can be honest. I didn't want to help at all! But out of the goodness of my heart I did.
If that wasn't enough, my uncle calls my mom and upsets her about a comment she SUPPOSEDLY made to my great uncle. My mom simply called my uncle sending condolences about his dead wife...now I'm upset and my anxiety is running wild...
I feel like my life is in shambles...I want to move away...I want to live in laboratory doing research until my eyes bleed...I'm tired of the drama...it never fails...and as my situation gets worse, the only thing that I can do is calm myself and hope and pray that things will get better...
On a brighter note, I read an interesting article on CNN about triple negative breast cancer(TNBC). I want to go into cancer research later in life. I plan on obtaining my doctorate in Cancer Bio...which would explain why I'm suggesting the article lol. TNBC is a type of breast cancer that is non responsive to hormone therapy because the tumor lacks estrogen, progesterone, and HER2 hormone receptors. The cancer is very difficult to treat...although traditional forms of treatment such as chemotherpy and radiation are used. The cancer is very aggressive and seen in young African American females. The doctor in the article travels to Africa (specifically Ghana) to see if she can find a clue or some significance (connection) with the cancer seen in women in Ghana and in the US. Even though this is a small step, this is big. Not only may there be genetic connections, but this could be a step towards finding a more effective diagnosis in the future. There are so many new techniques being used to diagnose various cancer (ex. ovarian)...I studied Mass Spec in my Biochem class and that is helping to diagnose patients in enough time to receive treatment before they succumb to the disease. Cancer is a crazy disease...it can be virtually untreatable at times and is uncurable...
It's up to the new scientists coming up to stop this...and let me say that I am ready for the challenge =)
http://www.cnn.com/2009/HEALTH/07/21/bia.triple.negative.cancer/index.html
I wish that this blog would be better but it can't. Today has been a long stressful day. To begin with, my cousin betrayed a discrete agreement. She asked me to do something...and went behind my back and told about the agreement. I was utterly upset. Then, she asked me to help her today...I did but relunctantly. Why should I help you now that the agreement is pretty much null and void. Now that everything is done, I can be honest. I didn't want to help at all! But out of the goodness of my heart I did.
If that wasn't enough, my uncle calls my mom and upsets her about a comment she SUPPOSEDLY made to my great uncle. My mom simply called my uncle sending condolences about his dead wife...now I'm upset and my anxiety is running wild...
I feel like my life is in shambles...I want to move away...I want to live in laboratory doing research until my eyes bleed...I'm tired of the drama...it never fails...and as my situation gets worse, the only thing that I can do is calm myself and hope and pray that things will get better...
On a brighter note, I read an interesting article on CNN about triple negative breast cancer(TNBC). I want to go into cancer research later in life. I plan on obtaining my doctorate in Cancer Bio...which would explain why I'm suggesting the article lol. TNBC is a type of breast cancer that is non responsive to hormone therapy because the tumor lacks estrogen, progesterone, and HER2 hormone receptors. The cancer is very difficult to treat...although traditional forms of treatment such as chemotherpy and radiation are used. The cancer is very aggressive and seen in young African American females. The doctor in the article travels to Africa (specifically Ghana) to see if she can find a clue or some significance (connection) with the cancer seen in women in Ghana and in the US. Even though this is a small step, this is big. Not only may there be genetic connections, but this could be a step towards finding a more effective diagnosis in the future. There are so many new techniques being used to diagnose various cancer (ex. ovarian)...I studied Mass Spec in my Biochem class and that is helping to diagnose patients in enough time to receive treatment before they succumb to the disease. Cancer is a crazy disease...it can be virtually untreatable at times and is uncurable...
It's up to the new scientists coming up to stop this...and let me say that I am ready for the challenge =)
http://www.cnn.com/2009/HEALTH/07/21/bia.triple.negative.cancer/index.html
Sunday, July 19, 2009
Ok...I don't get it
I'm usually not the type of person to post 2 times in one day but something disturbing occurred recently. My friend called me to tell me about how her life was going. I love my friend...but I realized something...SHE DOESN'T HAVE THE SAME DRIVE AS ME.
Right now, I'm job hunting. And although things are bleak, I have an undieing passion within me. I want to be successful. It's not just about the finer things in life either...it's about what God put me on the Earth to do. And I now know what that is...and I am passionate about it and about acheiving that goal. I'm the type of person that if I have to work harder than 1 million people to get what I want, I will. Because I know that things will work out if I do what I need to do. I recently took a short term job to help to pay finances in the household. And while my friend had the same opportunity to do this, she didn't. I was hurt, upset, and dissapointed. I had defended this person for so long...saying that no she wasn't lazy, she was just delayed due to harsh life situations. Now I realize that I can't help someone I care for if they do not want to be helped. She could have helped her situation more...but she didn't. In fact she's gotten herself into more trouble and I honestly don't think she'll get out as soon as she'd like...
Sure I want to have it all like everyone else...but nothing comes withought hard work and dedication. I am an intelligent woman...and while there are others that may be smarter than me, I know that they'll never be able to out work me. The moral of this post is to push through everything and anything...don't be lazy, be on top of your game...if you want to be successful, you gotta be diligent and patient
Drake --> Successful
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7kcDpsjbCok
Right now, I'm job hunting. And although things are bleak, I have an undieing passion within me. I want to be successful. It's not just about the finer things in life either...it's about what God put me on the Earth to do. And I now know what that is...and I am passionate about it and about acheiving that goal. I'm the type of person that if I have to work harder than 1 million people to get what I want, I will. Because I know that things will work out if I do what I need to do. I recently took a short term job to help to pay finances in the household. And while my friend had the same opportunity to do this, she didn't. I was hurt, upset, and dissapointed. I had defended this person for so long...saying that no she wasn't lazy, she was just delayed due to harsh life situations. Now I realize that I can't help someone I care for if they do not want to be helped. She could have helped her situation more...but she didn't. In fact she's gotten herself into more trouble and I honestly don't think she'll get out as soon as she'd like...
Sure I want to have it all like everyone else...but nothing comes withought hard work and dedication. I am an intelligent woman...and while there are others that may be smarter than me, I know that they'll never be able to out work me. The moral of this post is to push through everything and anything...don't be lazy, be on top of your game...if you want to be successful, you gotta be diligent and patient
Drake --> Successful
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7kcDpsjbCok
Life I wonder...will it take me under?
So...hello audience lol
Well, here's my "formal" intro. I'm a girl who's been through life's challenges and now I find myself in a position in which I would rather talk about them over the internet than to people. I find that in general, PEOPLE SUCK...
I think everyone comes to this realization after the initial embarrassment that is experienced as a child when kids stare at you because you different. I must say that after 16 years of education, this conclusion does not change once you get older. In fact it gets worst. Think about it, being a part of a country who's moto is "if you're not with us, you're against us" has definitely put a perspective on things.
So now, I come to the point in my life where I know what I want to do and yet I'm denied it every step of the way...so let me set the record straight...no I'm not saying that I am above reproach for my life and my mistakes...but I am saying that I did what needed to be done and I'm in a position that I never thought I'd be in...
To you out there who feel the same, this blog is for you..because of course it could be so much worst than this...lol
Well, here's my "formal" intro. I'm a girl who's been through life's challenges and now I find myself in a position in which I would rather talk about them over the internet than to people. I find that in general, PEOPLE SUCK...
I think everyone comes to this realization after the initial embarrassment that is experienced as a child when kids stare at you because you different. I must say that after 16 years of education, this conclusion does not change once you get older. In fact it gets worst. Think about it, being a part of a country who's moto is "if you're not with us, you're against us" has definitely put a perspective on things.
So now, I come to the point in my life where I know what I want to do and yet I'm denied it every step of the way...so let me set the record straight...no I'm not saying that I am above reproach for my life and my mistakes...but I am saying that I did what needed to be done and I'm in a position that I never thought I'd be in...
To you out there who feel the same, this blog is for you..because of course it could be so much worst than this...lol
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