Science is Life

Today, my mind is clear. My emotions are at a low (which is good). I'm not happy but I'm almost numb to love. After going through what could be considered as a break-up, I'm still emotionally attached but I see the larger picture. I was slowly but surely letting that part of my life slip into my work. And that is UNACCEPTABLE. I was mad at myself for allowing the two to merge. But now I'm back on track. I feel like I have a new focus on my purpose. Last week, my boss told me I made an unacceptable error in my experiment. I did. And I must say that I was frustrated...my weekend consisted of me in the bed, upset at myself for ever committing that error. I'm someone that prides themselves on doing the right thing at work. So, I took a deep breath, stepped back from the situation, and re-focused my energy to fix the problem.

Science is Life. For my fellow scientists out there, I'm sure you can relate. If something is going wrong in the lab, life is going wrong (and vice versa). Life is similar to experiments; nothing ever really goes as planned. (Even though you may have been planning for weeks.) So you have to adjust certain steps in a protocol...or change you your thinking altogether. So while I'm changing things in the lab, I'm doing the same in my life. Yes, I'm pretty much single but if I had to choose which I wanted more...I would go with my career (in a heart beat) over love. Why do you ask? Well of course I want to fall in love and have a partner. But I want to be successful much more...I've invested so much time and energy into this and NO I can't just put it down for a second. I know the type of person that I am...and I know the type of woman I am...and it takes an incredible man to deal with me. LOYALTY is huge; TRUST is huge. But above all, he has to be willing to understand that my career is me...science is me. Sometimes, I regret the way I handled situations because they could have turned out better. But once I sit down and think about it, I realize that that is life. And that is science. You may or may not expect for the result to occur, but when it does its glorious. You hold on to that moment, and you share it with the world (or that special person) =).