Another CF?....Frustration

Tonight's blog is weird lol...

Some people have common names but my the combination of my first and last names are not that common. So, to find someone with the exact same first name and almost the same last name is crazy! I mean there are variations of my last name but for some other girl to have the first name too...simply bizarre...

Now on to other important matters...

I must say that my life for the past 3 months has not been the best...Yes I am a college graduate...but I am a graduate who is still out of work.

I have more than enough passion and intelligence to offer any laboratory; and yet I find myself working in a position that I do not like. I want to be happy but I simply can not. How can ANYONE truely understand unless they experience the everyday struggle that I go through at home and at work...

I try to be happy for my friends...but I can't help but ask why those same good fortunes that are blessing them are not blessing me...what have I done wrong? I have faith and I believe in myself...I'm passionate...I'm an upstanding citizen...I have a degree in a field that many want to attain but find it difficult to...I'm in a field that favors me in every aspect...and I graduated from a GREAT institute...so why is this happening to me?

I believe in God...I have faith...I have dreams...why?

I know it could be worse...but for me this is worse...I'm a person who thrives off success...who lives for the ability to conduct research in a lab...to learn...to improve...to be better....

and yet I see myself down every day...

YES, I am happy for those who make it...but I cringe a little inside because I have not...I AM THE HARDEST WORKING PERSON I KNOW...

I don't knock others, but I know myself. I am the type of person that if it takes working a job at 30,000 a year in order to get experience to earn a degree that would get me 90,000 a year, I'm willing to do that...

Even at the job I'm at now I work had...

So now I find myself at a crossroads...the only thing that will ease my pain is prayer and the occasional laugh from Family Guy or Spongebob cartoons...

To quote Drake loosely...I know the success is coming, I just hope that I'm alive for it... =?

DrCBri OUT